Its about the story the individual has. All to often, the trans- individual is placed on marginialized status, that is, barely reguarded as normal human beings according to our society. When an individual discloses (comes out) his or her trans- status, I (like too many people) will get 'kicked out' of mainstream society and must fend for themselves.
Its rather difficult to secure housing, and very difficult to obtain shelter services. Program staff will have a hard time trying to figure out where to place a trans- individual, thus making the person unconfertable with their housing situation. Now the individual is homeless. Since the person is now close to pennyless, street-walking (sex work) becomes the only method of raising money. Then the problems associated with that, and getting hooked' on drugs.
This folks, is part of my story, and is frequent to most trans- people. Mainstream people think they can write us off as a dark underbelly of individuals. These exact same people think were less than human and treat us like that. Then comes the drastic period of time where the person thinks of "Do I want to rejoin society and suspend my process". I did, and I did. My family (in 2003) wanted nothing to do with me and effectively put me back into the closet like a china doll.
Just becuase an individual dosn't outwardly appear he or she is going through a gender process, on the inside they still are. and eventually, the person will resolve to go forward. I had to, five years later (to 2008) in order to prevent myself from shooting myself in the head. Folks, this is why so many of us die.
I am lucky enough to post this on an internet site, while hundreds of trans- folk died.
They died.
a human being died.
not a hot, horney sex object.
a human.
died.
human. died.
put the two together: human. died.
again:
human. died.
and again futher:
human. died.
Now to the "what really pisses me off" part of the post:
Its not about the process of looking a certian way. Its about realigning in and out. I can say I was victomized by society. but I dont anymore. I was on drugs, and got sexually assulted while streetwalking. that story is repeated by thousands of trans- individuals. Society kicks us out. Where's the face to the name in all of this. that's the other reason why I started this blog.
To give, real life acconuts about the transitional process. I loose friends online and offline beucase of these words I choose to write. Who in their f-in rite mind would become a streetwalker? since the trans- got kicked out of society, they are left to fend for themselves (as i stated earlier).
Currently, there's massive roadblocks in even receiving emergency services. How about being told, "We dont want your kind in here". People told me that while going to 12 step meetings (and they were f*king gay meetings). I couldn't even secure sober living. So where do these people go? Guess where. on the damn street.
People, deal with this. These words are dripped in blood of the hundreds of trans- folks that are raped and murderd through out the United States. Just recently, a trans- gendered TN woman was beaten down by three police officers while booking in jail. medical providers just watched and noted nothing was going on.
This shit needs to stop already.
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