ceiling cat is watching you ...

mmm... cookie

Tue, 19 May 2009 20:57:36 GMT

so im at the public library, a little bored ..
so i wanted to make another cookie post ..

feel free to post lolcats here ..

= ( o.o ) =
^ ^

hope that came out right .

in search of cookie

Wed, 13 May 2009 22:57:05 GMT

so .. was up :)

twitter: wackotm

hope u doing ok and not sick .

heh .

future plans

Tue, 20 Jan 2009 23:47:14 GMT

man, I am/was tore up emotionally over these 4 weeks.

Im making progress into moving onto my own two feet. whether that is my own apartment or a 'sober living', the ultimate goal is to have a place without my family breathing down my neck.

Theres people in my life (family) that dosn't like my plans. *gives the finger* fuck'em. I cannot continue to give up my adult life for anyone anymore. I wrote a little bit on my other blogs, like how I want to get a cheap ass digital camera (like 2 mega pixels) and start snapping raw LA/Hollywood.

Get into white and bronze makeup and get silver dye on my hair. =P

pokes you

Fri, 19 Dec 2008 05:24:59 GMT

now where's that kitteh picture that blows a razzberry ...

:P

winter solstice coming up

a kitteh

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 22:49:07 GMT

haha...

:)

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 04:15:01 GMT

hey ...

^__^

:P

Wed, 08 Oct 2008 01:15:24 GMT

im keeping up entries at my other journals.
*waves hi* to everyone here.

meanwhile, enjoy your kitteh

so much fail ... :(

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 22:30:05 GMT

3 months of not posting .. ?

i've been posting over at blog spot in hopes of documatating the issues of transitioning the genderline. heh. There are plans in my future to move to san francisco and such.

when i go, they'll be a long period of time where i wont post, cuase i need to establish appointments and housing. If I get a po box up there, i'll post it ... heh :)

Cross post: fly around in darkness

Tue, 01 Jul 2008 23:05:34 GMT

swimming umgonst the dead.
flying around in darkness.
for many, many years.

No one want me.
people want me dead.
some may hand be a gun.
be careful, or become un-dead.

America the Giant.
Dictator to the world.

flying around in darkness.
with battles and wars.
bullets blasting into an abyss.

Fly around in darkness.
blindly follow others.
its good for you.
give up your freedoms.
we know best.

Flying around in darkness.
where mainstream dictate the lives of others.
Fight back.

or.
Fly around in darkness.

Cross Post: Trans- Discussion.

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 02:59:56 GMT

Its about the story the individual has. All to often, the trans- individual is placed on marginialized status, that is, barely reguarded as normal human beings according to our society. When an individual discloses (comes out) his or her trans- status, I (like too many people) will get 'kicked out' of mainstream society and must fend for themselves.

Its rather difficult to secure housing, and very difficult to obtain shelter services. Program staff will have a hard time trying to figure out where to place a trans- individual, thus making the person unconfertable with their housing situation. Now the individual is homeless. Since the person is now close to pennyless, street-walking (sex work) becomes the only method of raising money. Then the problems associated with that, and getting hooked' on drugs.

This folks, is part of my story, and is frequent to most trans- people. Mainstream people think they can write us off as a dark underbelly of individuals. These exact same people think were less than human and treat us like that. Then comes the drastic period of time where the person thinks of "Do I want to rejoin society and suspend my process". I did, and I did. My family (in 2003) wanted nothing to do with me and effectively put me back into the closet like a china doll.

Just becuase an individual dosn't outwardly appear he or she is going through a gender process, on the inside they still are. and eventually, the person will resolve to go forward. I had to, five years later (to 2008) in order to prevent myself from shooting myself in the head. Folks, this is why so many of us die.

I am lucky enough to post this on an internet site, while hundreds of trans- folk died.
They died.
a human being died.
not a hot, horney sex object.
a human.
died.

human. died.
put the two together: human. died.

again:

human. died.

and again futher:
human. died.

Now to the "what really pisses me off" part of the post:
Its not about the process of looking a certian way. Its about realigning in and out. I can say I was victomized by society. but I dont anymore. I was on drugs, and got sexually assulted while streetwalking. that story is repeated by thousands of trans- individuals. Society kicks us out. Where's the face to the name in all of this. that's the other reason why I started this blog.

To give, real life acconuts about the transitional process. I loose friends online and offline beucase of these words I choose to write. Who in their f-in rite mind would become a streetwalker? since the trans- got kicked out of society, they are left to fend for themselves (as i stated earlier).

Currently, there's massive roadblocks in even receiving emergency services. How about being told, "We dont want your kind in here". People told me that while going to 12 step meetings (and they were f*king gay meetings). I couldn't even secure sober living. So where do these people go? Guess where. on the damn street.

People, deal with this. These words are dripped in blood of the hundreds of trans- folks that are raped and murderd through out the United States. Just recently, a trans- gendered TN woman was beaten down by three police officers while booking in jail. medical providers just watched and noted nothing was going on.

This shit needs to stop already.

Stolen from dances_withcats

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 01:58:44 GMT

1. First Name: J (something)

2. Age: 31.

3. Location: Currently, Los Angeles County, CA (4 Million People, yeh)

4. Occupation:
Sex Worker. (just kidding). I guess I could say, Tax Accountant for the economically disadvantaged (freelance). White Hat Computer Hacker (should I even say that) [If you must know, I tell the owner how systems got compremised so they can fix it]

5. Partner: None and complicated subject.

6. Kids: Want at least 1 (mayb 2) the old fashioned way.

7. Brothers/Sisters: One older sister, 14 months older.

8. Pets: A dog and cat. Chico for the dog, charlie IV for the cat.

9. List the 3-5 biggest things going on in your life:
* need to move to San Fransisco.
* A transsexual in pre-transition.
* Considering peircings (not on lobe, higher), and a tattoo.

10. Parents: 2 have been toegther now 25+ yr. Its not a happy marriage. Money always comes up. One sites the other for being a spending addict, while the other happen to reminds the 1st person that they were a drug addict.

11. Who are some of your closest friends? I have online friends. I have a mentor who I've knowen for 12 years in real life. other than that, dont know.

>.>

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 01:40:44 GMT

eh.. dont know what to post much about .. I think I own like 5 or 6 places to post now.. how funny. I guess im attempting to split my audience (if I even have one). Theres only 1 or 2 that are serious journals, the rest .. is when i post while i am bored. . :P

ceiling cat ...

Sat, 14 Jun 2008 22:52:02 GMT

I decided to start posting... b/c a friend of mine returned to LJ ._.

blogs... yay

Thu, 10 Apr 2008 19:43:29 GMT

man... i have so many now.. lol.

i've started another at ... joehackerruns.blogspot.com :P and another dedicated to iPhone Hacking.. but i wont give that out here.. ~(:

Holy Macro, Batman!

Tue, 15 Jan 2008 01:53:55 GMT

So I decided to take Calculus II today.
I've known the professor from two lower courses already.
Ya know, that warm and fuzzy feeling.

One has to be a complete nerd to walk about campus and
think: You know, taking Calculus would be fun!

hahahahaha!!

im still heerreee

Mon, 14 Jan 2008 23:44:01 GMT

so how is everyone?

:-P

Fri, 04 Jan 2008 00:32:17 GMT

Its pretty hard to tell to find silver glitter in my hair... =\
I died my hair this morning. Its ok, i guess. I'm still looking for metallic silver spray (ill google l8r.

Thu, 03 Jan 2008 02:06:44 GMT

I am at an internet cafe w/a webcam... so I wanted to take a picture... this is what it captured. I bought black hair coloring so I'll do that. Also bought "Glitter Metallic Silver".. I see how that turns out. Everyone here will do that too.

A friend pulled me to aside with a state income tax letter. they wanted to know what to do with their $100 payment since they didn't file a state income tax return for 2003. So they filled one in, recording the $100 as "other payments". So they'll get back the $100 plus the $6 overpayment.

Am I a dork or what? >:->

:)

Sun, 30 Dec 2007 02:06:24 GMT

I've posted my PGP key up here.. hope people can find it... I downloaded pgp50i onto my flash, and installed 'command prompt portable' to my drive.. so in theory, i can kick into a dos prompt and encrypt messages "manually".. which is more fun than a windows GUI IMHO

send me your key and then send me something.

finally... :-P

Fri, 28 Dec 2007 00:25:17 GMT

Here's a userpic from that $10 camera that I was talking about earlier

hmm..

Wed, 26 Dec 2007 21:30:48 GMT

so the christian holiday passes.. and yes, people are
jammed packed into stores. i got some holiday money
and got one of those $10 keychain cameras.. now I dont
have to feel guilty for snapping photos. sooner or
later, i'll post myself on lj.. =P

the specks are to laugh at: ~320x240 (i think that's
Quarter VGA.. and that's FULL resoulation... half is
like 160x120 or something like that.

but for 10 bucks... i can get a head-shot out of
it.. =P that, and some upclose photos for selling
at Ebay maybe.

also bought a new flash drive.. 2gb/go cruzer. I
lost my 4gb a few months back on a amtrak train
going to San Francisco. It had client tax data
on it :'(. Everyone put up a fraud alert and
basically no acutal credit damauge.. Now I back
up my data onto a "MyBook" external HDD at home
(in a firebox)

the book kicks my ass; i kick back harder.

Sun, 23 Dec 2007 00:57:01 GMT

haha... Im on a 4hour pace per chapter.
perfection is paying off in this case..
devoted at least 50 index cards for 1 chapter.. sheesh

is'ok. i have three packs left b4 i need moar.

pretty soon, im gonna have binary dreams again... :(
definantly NOT looking forward to that..
last time: 7th grade. I was obsessed with binary fractions.
If I had a checking account back then, I would have balanced it
in binary :(

thank goddess

Sat, 22 Dec 2007 00:46:19 GMT

the end of my fall term working....

keep hearing of budget fighting..
so i want to cut from there very fuckin' quick.

I'll have some transitional plan in the coming
weeks. =P

Happy Soliste
Merry Yule
Blessed Be
~~joethefairy

im a two day n00b

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 22:04:07 GMT

dont know how to ljcut yet... but am able to post weblinks for photos
(for photobucket). at least im no longer getting flammed..

that's always nice.

I could not resist the one!

Thu, 20 Dec 2007 20:05:12 GMT